#13 Is It My Wildest Dreams...or Is It His...?

Haiiiiii....;-P


[Mode : Deja Vu...Disturbing...]

Hai guys...what's up..? Macam mana kehidupan korang? Ok...? Tak Terlambat rasanya untuk Amir ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha...Well, as I said in my first post, Amir nie berasal dari somewhere south...so cuti raya nie Amir balik ke kampung...and macam tajuk kat atas tu My Wildest dream...or His...? macam tu jugak lah Amir nak kongsikan something that happened to me masa Amir balik kampung nie...

First of all....kita stop dulu pasal citer Mr. H coz Amir tak berniat nak sambung pun citer part 2 of my love story in this entry...Amir janji next entri Amir akan sambung balik citer pasal Mr. H tu...k...;-P

Nope...Tell You Later...

So the story goes like this...Ahad lepas Amir balik ke kampung...so sebab balik kampung awal, Amir rase teramat boring coz ramai kawan Amir (which is also PLU) tak balik ke kampung lagi and Amir takde someone yang nak ajak lepak or berborak-borak...so terperap lah kat umah....tengok TV...tido...makan...sampai mak Amir pun dok membebel coz Amir nie dah jadik macam ular sawa dah...kikiki...;-P

So untuk menghilangkan bosan, Amir start lah menggatal kat satu Gay Apps nie...well, tujuan utama Amir nak berborak and nak ilangkan bosan jer...nak cari teman untuk out and minum-minum ker...so bile Amir sibuk dok stalker profile orang-orang yang ader kat area kampung Amir nie...Amir ternampak lah satu profle yang Amir agak berminat and aper lagik...antar lah masej kat profile mamat nie...mula-mula Amir rase mamat nie macam tak kan respon sebab mamat nie agak Gorgeous lah jugak and manly look...yerlah kalo nak dibandingkan dengan Amir...Umpama langit dengan bumi...hukhukhuk *nangis....

Well, mamat nie nama Iskandar...he look manly dengan kumis and berjanggut...which is I love to fall too...hihihi...and to my surprise die reply my mesej...so borak punya borak dalam apps tu...die pun ajak Amir keluar jumpa kat area town...so Amir on jer lah sebab dok kat umah pun memang lah teramat boring...and nak-nak lagi memang niat Amir using that apps to find someone to borak-borak...

Kami jumper kat Old Town White Coffee...and start la borak...well, Iskandar nie bukan berasal dari selatan...tapi berasal dari pantai timur (pantai timur lagik...;-p)...die cuma bekerja jer kat area selatan...and Iskandar nie seorang yang funny...asyik buat lawak jer...so asyik ketawa jer lah Amir...lepas minum-minum kat Old Town tu...kiter orang cruising lah sekitar bandar tu...sambil sambung borak...and later that day, kiteorg pi lah tengok movie...So lepas habis movie...die cakap nak balik umah coz die nak mandi and bagi kucing die makan katanya...by the way...I Love Cats too...and die ajak Amir ikut die balik umah dia...dalam hati Amir macam lain jer Iskandar nie...hihihi..;-P

Amir pun follow jer lah ikut die balik...and sampai kat umah die which is beautiful nice rumah teres, die buat kan air untuk Amir sambil die cakap die nak mandi and minta Amir tunggu die...I said ok...whatever...I'll wait you...and lepas die mandi sambil bertuala (again...macam pernah berlaku sebelum nie...Deja Vu?) duduk sebelah Amir and buat jantung Amir nie berdegup macam nak tercabut...and aper yang berlaku seterusnya tak perlulah diceritakan...hehehe...*larikkkk....(well, u can imagine what happened ok..)

Imagined It Now...

Look, dari niat nak find someone to talk...bole jadik citer lain yang Amir tak jangkakan plak...so long story short...after that, Amir cakap nak balik umar coz dah agak lewat dah time tu, and die cakap kalau ader mase die nak jumpe Amir lagi sebelum die plak balik ke kampung die kat Pantai Timur tu untuk sambut hari raya adha...Amir ok jer coz Amir macam dah fall in love plak kat Iskandar nie...hahaha...*larikkk lagik....

So the next day, one of my friends dah balik kampung, and die ajak Amir hangout kat sebuah Taman yang menjadi tempat lepak para-para PLU sebab die nak kenalkan seseorang yang very important to him kat Amir...so bile Amir dah sampai kat tempat tu...Amir boleh terjumpa dengan Iskandar tu kat situ...Tapi yang mengejutkan Amir ialah kawan Amir tu kenal Iskandar...and lagi memeranjatkan Amir yang kawan Amir tu adalah BF si Iskandar tu...

I like what the hell...rupanya Iskandar nie sudah berpunya and Amir suka kan hak milik orang lain...the worst thing is he is my friend boyfriend's...OMG, what have I done...so bila Iskandar tu nampak Amir, die buat macam nothing happened jerk...and its piss me of...I'm so mad, so Amir bagi tahu kat kawan Amir tu yang Amir nak jalan-jalan kat area Taman tu sebab Amir malas nak pandang muka si Iskandar tu the big liar...

Kalau dia honestly bagi tahu awal-awal yang die ader BF, conform...Amir repeat...CONFORM tak kan ada aper-aper yang berlaku malam tu...Amir bukannya jenis yang akan ambil hak orang lain...I not that kind of person...But what had happen already happened...and I'm not gonna let it gettin' worst by telling my friend the truth...so it is better for Amir to just keep my mouth sealed and move on...and forget bout it...

Sampai hari nie, ketika Amir tulis this story dia masih masej and call Amir cakap minta maaf sebab tak bagi tahu hal yang sebenar...and dia jugak speechless bila dia tengok Amir bersama BF die...Amir malas nak layan call and masej die..tapi satu yang buat Amir teringat dan tak boleh lupa, Amir pernah cakap masa mula-mula jumpa dia dulu yang die adalah My Wildest Dreams...I quite like him at that time...tapi tak sangka plak rupanya Amir nie yang sebenarnya His Wildest Dreams, sebab masej terakhir dia...dia ubah suai lirik lagu Taylor Swift tu and bagi kat Amir...and diakhiri dengan permohonan maaf dia...and dia harap Amir akan maafkan dia dan sentiasa ingat kat dia coz I am his Wildest Dreams...

Iskandar...Siapa yang menjadi Wildest Dreams kepada siapa sebenarnyer...?

Well, Amir kongsikan bait-bait lirik yang Iskandar ubahsuai dan ditujukan khas untuk Amir tu katanya kat semua...so aper yang korang semua rasa...what do you think? Amir tak mahu menjadi kekasih gelap dia...tapi bila Amir fahami dan hayati bait-bait lirik lagu tu conform yang dia macam nak jadikan Amir scandal dia...Please, I'm not that kind of person...

Wildest Dreams

I said, "Let's get out of this town,
Drive out of the city, away from the crowds."
I thought heaven can't help me now.
Nothing lasts forever, but this is gonna take me down

He's so tall and handsome as hell
He's so bad but he does it so well
I can see the end as it begins
My one condition is

Say you'll remember me standing in a nice suite,
Staring at the sunset, babe
Nice Lips and dimple cheeks 
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams, oh, ah, wildest dreams, oh, ah.

I said, "No one has to know what we do,"
His hands are in my hair, his clothes are in my room
And his voice is a familiar sound,
Nothing lasts forever but this is getting good now

He's so tall and handsome as hell
He's so bad but he does it so well
And when we've had our very last kiss
My last request it is

Say you'll remember me standing in a nice suite,
Staring at the sunset, babe
Nice lips and dimple cheeks
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams, oh, ah, wildest dreams, oh, ah.

You see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burning it down
Someday when you leave me
I bet these memories
Follow you around

You'll see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burning it down
Someday when you leave me
I bet these memories
Follow you around

Say you'll remember me standing in a nice suite,
Staring at the sunset, babe
Nice lips and dimple cheeks
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just pretend

Say you'll remember me standing in a nice suite,
Staring at the sunset, babe
Nice lips and dimple cheeks
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just in your (just pretend, just pretend) wildest dreams, oh, ah, in your wildest dreams, oh, ah
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams, oh, ah, in your wildest dreams, ah, ah.

It is the worst thing happen to me during this holiday...huh *sigh....

Byeee...:-P 

#12 My Heart Is A Ghost Town....

Haiiiiii....;-P


[Mode : Knock..Knock..Knockin' On My Heart Door...]

Hai guys...what's up..? Macam mana kehidupan korang? Ok...? Berhantu tak tittle kat atas tu....huhuhu...;-P Amir bile bace blog En Nu'man, En Kamen and kengkawan lain about love life...rase sgt jeles tau kikiki...but of course jeles in a good way lah...al-maklumlah, bile Amir single mingle nie, terasa plak nak disayangi dan dicintai, but it's nobody there...my heart is empty...sunyi sepi...like a Ghost Town...k...

Well, kepada sesape yang pernah baca post #6 What's Luv...? Amir hari tu mesti akan teringatkan Mr H yang pernah hadir dalam hidup Amir satu ketika dulu...so in this post Amir nak citer kan skit tentang Mr H nie...and how sadly in the end we are separated...meneruskan hala tuju hidup masing--masing...so maybe untuk first part nie, Amir citer detail skit tentang Mr H nie...

Mr H...He Was My Gay Thing...

Ok lets Rewind a little...Amir mengenali Mr H time Amir belajar kat sebuah Universiti di Pantai Timur dulu. Well, Mr H nie adalah senior Amir...merangkap room mate Amir. Mr H nie adalah orang yang quite popular kat Uni Amir. Die salah seorang ahli majlis perwakilan pelajar and hensome tau hihihi....coz Mr H nie ader mix blood skit...Malay mix with Siamese and Irish...so imagine that ok...seriously, imagine that...

So masa Amir in my Junior year, Amir sangat Naive dengan dunia-dunia PLU nie...although, I always know I'm quite different from my other friends...Maksud Amir, time sekolah dulu kalau kawan--kawan Amir sibuk dengan aweks sana sini...Amir plak seem doesn't fit dengan situation tu...bukannya takde pompuan yang nak approach Amir, ada...banyak plak tu...tapi mostly Amir reject dengan alasan Amir nak concentrate dengan study la, it's not time for love la...dan pelbagai lagi alasan yang munasabah dan munasarawak (bleh? ;-P)....

So as I mention earlier, Mr H nie senior and room mate Amir...and first day, at my collage time minggu suai kenal, Amir and other junior dah kene raging dah dengan die...tapi yang bestnyer (and pelik too...at that time la) Amir paling sedikit kene raging dengan die...oh Amir forgot to mention yang die nie fasilitator untuk minggu suai kenal tu...and bile dah settle minggu suai kenal...Amir pun di beri bilik tetap untuk semester tu...and to my surprise, Amir kene satu bilik plak dengan Mr H...it feels so awkward...

Untuk sebulan dua pertama tu takde aper yang berlaku sangat, even though time tu die banyak bagi hints-hints yang die suka kan Amir...but to my Naive mind...Amir tak anggap aper-aper coz Amir rase die mungkin anggap Amir nie macam adik-adik die jer and that time Amir ingat die dah ader awek (and of course die takde) coz bagi Amir orang yang popular macam die takkan takder awek kan..? 

So antara hint-hint yang selalu bagi macam, die take care for me time Amir demam, sanggup tak tido malam just nak make sure ader tuala basah di dahi Amir la...bersusah payah cari transport untuk bawa Amir ke kinik la..macam-macam la...Mr H nie ade satu tabiat yang Amir rase kurang elok (but the definition kurang elok bagi PLU nie mungkin berubah menjadi elok ;-P)...die suka kalau balik bilik lepas mandi, tutup tingkap and kunci pintu and lap badan dengan tuala sambil berbogel depan Amir mostly la...and dier selalu akan cakap Amir takpe ke die berkelakuan begitu depan Amir, is it bothering to me? Amir biasernyer akan senyum jer and akan buat-buat alih kan perhatian...tapi dalam hati like, bi*ch, it's not bothering..it's 'horny'ring ok...;-P

It's Horny not bother...

Sayangnye Amir nie pick up lambat...kalau cepat pick up dari awal-awal lagi Amir dah couple dengan dier....hihihi...Amir start declare dengan Mr H pun dekat-dekat nak cuti hujung sem dah...itu pun lepas Mr H dah geram sangat lepas macam-macam hint yang die bagi Amir buat don't know ajer...Mr H terus pegang tangan Amir and cakap, "maybe this is wrong, but I can't take it this anymore. I Love You, I need you, I want you to be in my life..." So Amir terkezut giler...coz it's so straight foward, and I don't know what to do...yerlah, to my defense, Amir kan Naive lagi time tu...I'm so innocent k...;-P But of course Amir terima die...coz sape yang tak nak disayangi...everybody needs love and it's including me...

Well, lamaran Amir tu tak lah macam dalam filem walaupun Amir berharap ianya macam dalam filem, romantik, ada bunga, ada kek, ada cincin...tapi kita nie kekadang kene lah berpijak dibumi yang nyata...I mean, jangan lah anggap dunia perfect, coz jika kita mengharap ianya perfect, kita akan meletakkannya dalam standard yang tinggi dan ianya pasti mengecewakan kita...Amir tak nafikan yang kita semua berharapkan yang perfect dalam sesebuah hubungan tu dan macam fairy tale 'happily ever after'...tapi jarang ianya berlaku macam tu terutama kita di bumi Malaysia yang penuh adat dan Agama...it's not gonna happen...mostly at the time...

Love have no boundaries...but don't set it to high...coz nobody is perfect...

Amir bercinta dengan Mr H dalam jangka masa 3 tahun but it's seem 3 thousand year for us...why 3 tahun? Amir story next time...coz untuk post kali nie, Amir tak bercadang untuk bercerita tentang hal perpisahan kami...cukuplah untuk kali nie Amir citer introduction to my love story jer...and everytime Amir pasang lagu Yuna - Lullabies nie, Amir pasti....pasti akan ingat kan Mr H....

Yuna - Lullabies

Like lullabies you are,

Forever in my mind.

I see you in all,

The pieces in my life.

Though you weren't mine,

You were my first love.

I wanted to go away with you,

And I will leave all my troubles here.

I wanted to run away with you,

And I will bring all my dreams and fears.

Like lullabies you are,

Forever in my mind.

I see you in all,

The pieces in my life.

Though you weren't mine…

Like lullabies you are,

Forever in my mind.

I see you in all,

The pieces in my life.

Though you weren't mine

Though you weren't mine,

You were my first love.

You were my first love.

I wanted to start again with you,

And I will leave all my worries here.

I wanted only you.

I know that I fell for you.

Like lullabies you are,

Forever in my mind.

I see you in all,

The pieces in my life.

Though you weren't mine…

Like lullabies you are,

Forever in my mind.

I see you in all,

The pieces in my life.

Though you weren't mine,

Though you weren't mine,

You were my first love.

You were my first love.

You were my first love.

~ End of My Part 1 Love Story ~

Cis, bersambung lah plak...hehehe...


Byeee...:-P